Hi @saturnzoon , sorry everything is diffucult at the moment.  Maybe you can watch some of your tv shows and try to tune out for a little while.  Can you set aside a little money every week from your pay and save up for he outdoor chair on your own?  Those outdoor chairs are really nice and I'm sure you would be comfy with some pillows and what not.  It would definitely be nice to be able to enjoy some sunshine and your backyard.  

Please reach out for support here and with the helplines if you need to. Take care 🙂