Hi everyone just writting things out as it does help to write out things ,anyway long story short today could have been very bad safety wise but thankfully that hasnt happend whet I mean is the person I was going to meet up with online for a date in person today could have hurt me who knows how if I had of made the wrong choice to meet them ,turns out most of his personal information that he shared with me was fake information and yes it turns out he was a playboy very much wanting to meet me for one reason only and honestly I dont want to think about what he potentially could have done to me against my will,thankfully I had a family member look into his information to see if he was who he said he was and none of it added up ,so thankfully but also after some convincing from a few family members who now know about my online dating which it took me a while to be convinced cause you know I kind of fell for the guy and the persona he was showing me online so anyway I avoided going thanks to my family members advice that in the end convinced me not to put myself in a potentially unsafe situation,this guy was very much just all about the physical aspect of dating and nothing more anyway I hopefully wont see him again anytime soon so yes maybe Ive learnt at least some lesson and should just listen to families advice cause after all their more experienced and pretty much saved me from making a dire mistake with a stranger ,I mean who knows what could of happend ,he played me all along with lies lucky I listened to family even though it was hard to listen to them I know theyve got my back so yeah I should be thankfull to family instead of lashing out at them like I did for a bit ,thank goodness family have thought more about my safety when honestly lately I sometimes havent thought about my persoanl safety but thankfully Im ok and nothing happend today ,hopefully one day I find someone far better and I dont have to be so defensive at family when there only trying to help ,with the stuff Ive been doing lately in terms of risk taking with strangers its a relief family dont push me away they kept reaching out till I finally paid attention to their advice ,thankfull they have my back that was a bit too much of a close call ,who knows I could be behaving a bit manic lately up and down moods,paronoid ect ,overprotective in one way but then physically not really showing personal boundaries to strangers so at least family helped gosh I have to let them help ,its too hard trying to find someone good to date on your own,at least I didnt get hurt I avoided getting hurt by a stranger thanks to family otherwise there would have been worse things for everyone to deal with the important thing is Im safe,nothing bad happend cause I didnt meet the person ,and well family are worried and care like they should ,I need to let family care and support,if something had of happend and I had of kept everything to myself well then that would have been far worse for everyone so I need to let myself lean on family when family can clearly see at the momment that I need their support just let family show concern and love and probly some guidance too so that I stay safe from strangers who only want to take advantage,see I geuss I like to be very very indipendant and rely on myself maybe sometimes too much indepandt even from family but sometimes you have to lean on family to stay safe ,they would have been terribly upset if anything had happend to me because of that person.the main thing is im safe ,avoided getting into a bad situation with a strangerwho acted as if they loved me
